Feeling ill

I am tired and not feeling so well, but I will take actions regardless of my feelings. I have been praying non stop and meditating and doing those things that I have been told to do. I am following direction and I am willing. This pain is to great not to be. I want to fix what I have broken and I can't..but one day I can attempt to right the wrongs and today I can do things that will not make the situations in my life...today I am choosing to suit up and show up no matter what...I want God, to be sober, and to treat others well...oh yeah and to drive..and I am making progress towards all of that moment by moment